Darker Side

This post is a little darker than I would like. But I need to get this out. And isn't that what blogs are for?

I'm a little colder than most. I spent my childhood sad and hurt, so in my adult life, I close people and things off so I don't have to feel that way. And as such, there are few people who's opinions matter. Because if you value someone's opinion, they have a little control. They can make you happy, or they can hurt you. So I only value the opinions of people I can whole heartedly trust. So you can imagine my anger and upset at having one of these people hurt me. They gave their opinion and crushed me. They took something that I think is ok, something that I've accepted, something I'm even a little excited about, and made it seem gross and wrong. And it's not.This is a person I've spent my entire life lookng up to. Spent my whole life loving. Someone that I've always wanted to be proud of me. Because I've alays been proud of them. I could barely even speak for fear of crying. I am not a person who cvries. I've always been embarassed by it. Ashamed to cry. But I cried in my car a I drove away. And I cry now as I write this. I don't know what to do with this hurt inside me. My gut reaction is to get angry. But I dont want to. I still love this person. But what do you do when someone who's never hurt you before, hurts you for the first time? Do I pretend like it never happened and move on?  ???

Duckie Cupcakes

Me and my SIL strike again! We made these cute little duckies cause I needed something to take to my doc appt. (During my pregnancy, I had got in the habit of taking goodies to my doc and everyone in his office) We are having a lot of fun with this cupcake decorating book that she bought. Whatever shall we do next? :)

It's the little moments...

I witnessed a beautiful moment this morning. Nic was taking care of Evelyn so I could get myself ready for the day. And when I came out of the bathroom and into the living room, there he was, holding Evelyn in his arms, rocking her and singing to her one of his favorite John Denver songs. And as I walked closer I could see sweet Evelyn's face. Her eyes were wide open, staring at her daddy and smiling. 5 weeks old. It brought tears to my eyes and made my heart melt. And as I stood there, I started to think how blessed I am. Because I am married to an amazing man. A man who is building us a home with his bare hands. A man who will take his kids hunting with him. And take them to the fair even though he hates crouds. I watch this man get on his knees and pray with Savannah at bedtime. And tickle her until they both can't breath from the laughter. There are so many children who don't have that. So many wives who don't get to experience these things. And I do. God blessed me with a wonderful man. One that I get to spend eternity with because of his faithfulness. He makes me a stronger person when I need it. All the frustration and annoyances just melt away when I step back and take a good look. My life is good.

Cupcakes

the sharks

life preservers

school of fish (we were supposed to use swedish fish, but we didn't have any)

so there are channel markers, bouys (?), sharks, life preservers and fishies

Okay, so my SIL and I made these fun cupcakes for a friends birthday. They were really fun to make and not very hard.

Fair Fun

We were able to go to the fair 2 seperate times. 1st was with my Ma, Donald, Anna, Chan, Andrew, Celia and Xander. We spent 8 (!!) hours walking around, taking kids on rides and eating. It was fun to be at the fair with my mom again. It was something we did every year growing  up.

2nd time my husband was able to come. Shaine, Katy and Shaily went with us and we met up with more family when we got there. I loved watching Nic's face as he watched Nanna go on rides. He really loves his girls. I think my favorite part was just the fact that I was out having a great time with the 3 people that mean the most to me.

Evelyn's Blessing

It was such a wonderful day!! My husband is an amazing man! He did a great job blessing our little girl. We had lots of family from both sides there. And that made it all the more special. Afterwards, everyone came back to our house and we had a big BBQ.

Getting Started

Well hello everyone!! I finally have a blog!!! I'm in the beginning stages, so it's a lttle plain right now. But give me time and I will fill these pages up!